Something to think about

So...this is my first post. We'll see how it goes. 

As I sit here trying to think of something to write, all I can think about is another blog I read this morning.  It was about bullying our own kids.

I could, unfortunately, relate to the mom who wrote it.  We get so caught up in our own lives and schedules. We are rushing here and there... groceries, cleaning, laundry, diaper changes, making meals, potty training, and everything else a mom of 3 kids does. We...I rush my kids...put your coat on, find your shoes, put your toys away, hurry hurry hurry. That's not how I pictured motherhood being. 

I pictured myself being the "perfect" mom. One who doesn't get stressed at the little unimportant things. One who can potty train in one day...because I'm just that good at being a mom. A mom who plays with her kids all day because I want to...but all the housework and laundry is magically done too.

I did not picture doing laundry all day and then not having energy to play dolls with my girls. I know I'm not the best at being patient. I worry and stress out way too fast... at everything. That is definitely my sin and downfall. I sometimes take my stress out on my kids. I snap. And isn't that bullying? Yelling at something one of the kids did wrong... that's not building them up, that's bullying with words. Sometimes I don't think before I talk. I just snap and then feel terribly guilty afterwards.  

Don't get me wrong I love my girls. I adore them. They are everything to me. But sometimes...they stress me out. 

I need to slow down. When one of my girls says "watch me!" I need to stop what I'm doing, and...watch. I need to stop rushing them, and let them do things, try things on their own... even if they don't do it my way. Maybe if they don't do something the way I want it done it's okay.